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OMG! Here it is now. Every girl/gay in the land is waiting for this.

Aidan is in this movie! It’s interesting.

LHEN! You just promised me you’d watch this with me. I won’t forget that. I thought of you when Samantha said “We made a deal ages ago. Men, babies – it doesn’t matter. We’re soulmates.” This is one movie that should be watched with friends and not with your boyfriend. I don’t think H would take you to this anyway. Hehe.

Last month, Carlo (my officemate) left DTC. And as now known to everyone, I’m leaving DTC in two weeks. Both of us expressed intent to join DTC’s company outing this year for old time’s sake. But of course, we will pay for our expenses: food, transpo, accommodation, etc. We just wanna be with the people we’ve loved and been with for the past four years. But I received the news from my manager that the management does not want us to come because: it’s a team-building activity so we shouldn’t be there; and that family members are not allowed so what more are ex-officemates/friends.

I feel sad. Parang ang bilis naman. I haven’t even left yet and now I already feel like an outsider. Alam ko ang sinasabi nila pero ang sa akin lang, hindi naman kami ibang tao. We’re labeled EX- but does that change how they feel towards us? Will it ruin the experience for them because we’re ex-officemates now? For four years we went through happy summer getaways together. Jusko, nakainuman at naligo na kami ng sabay-sabay. Remember this house we made? I wore pekpek shorts in front of them for fun time’s sake! Ganun na ka-komportable ang samahan namin. I just thought it was enough so they could make exceptions for us despite the obvious that we’re no longer part of the company. We’re not requesting to join them every year. Just this once for old time’s sake. But no, their principles mattered more than our personal relationship.

I’m not mad at anyone. Disappointed, yes. Honestly, I thought this would be easy. Hindi pala. Anyway, as Carlo said, para namang walang pinagsamahan. I didn’t expect that the words I heard before “we’re like a family here” end as well with your contract. Siguro I have to stop pushing myself. Magka-pride ka naman Borgy.

As soon as I render my final day in DTC, I’ll do my best not to look back. Difficult.

It doesn’t happen every year where I dedicate time to fully reflect on my spiritual life during Holy Week. The bishops may bombard media with reminders for people to think about what Lent truly means but usually for me, it’s just another holiday. A long weekend. But this year was different.

Two weeks ago I had a dream that really got to me. I heard God talking to me telling me to stop smoking. He didn’t say why – He just told me to stop. When I woke up, I didn’t take it seriously and thought maybe I was thinking too much of how many sticks I smoked that day before I slept. Two days went on without a change in my routine. Though I was already exerting effort to lessen smoking, I wasn’t planning to completely stop. Then I dreamed of it again. I heard God once more telling me to stop smoking. Freaked out by the familiarity of the dream, I woke up quickly. I decided I had to take it seriously. There might be scientific explanations as to why I dreamed of the same thing for two different days but I took it as a sign. God really took time to send me a message.

So the Holy Week week went with me not smoking. Seven days now and I’m proud of it. Whatever the reason for my dream, I’m sure it meant something good for me. And I’m very very thankful. Every time I go to mass, I only ask for the same good things for my family. But most of the time, I just thank God for the many blessings He’s giving me. Despite the downturns I get sometimes, I’m still in a good place. I cannot complain.