Piglet has always wanted me to go with him to rave parties and I’ve been there twice before. The first one was Tiesto and then next was Armin – both happened last year. They were a different experience from the usual clubs that I used to visit because of the big venue, amazing lights and really loud music. Plus the fact that world famous DJs were playing for you. And because of those, I enjoyed most of it. The only thing that I hated was standing up all night that really hurt my legs! Exhausting.
Cham is a friend I first met in high school. We became very close and then went separate ways only find ourselves together again in college. And because of that, he’s my only friend who also has his own personal relationships with all my closest friends. If there’s such thing as a lingering friend, he’s that and I like it. He celebrated his birthday last weekend with a party I’ve never seen before. Darn! We really are grown ups now.
When you blog and you show your face, you risk receiving judgment and personal attacks for your opinions. And when you meet people who you know regularly read your blog, you can’t help wondering about their thoughts regarding entries that may affect them. And if you’re a weak blogger like me, you compromise your desire to express and have an empty blog to protect your relationship with those people.
That explains my hiatus. The paranoia of knowing who reads my blog got to me so I chose not to write instead of discussing issues I have that may offend some people indirectly.
But then again, this is my blog and I bought a fucking domain for it! What’s the point of years of effort maintaining this blog if I’ll let what others say affect what I write here. So starting today, I’ll go back to writing whatever I feel should be here.
OMG! Ideas are starting to flow about my recent trips to certain places. Hahaha! But for now I’ll stop here. I had a long night at work and I need to wrap things up so I can go home.
September 26, 2009. It came and went leaving nothing but bad news. Ondoy ruined my birthday plans but as I’ve said before, I’m thankful it was the only thing I got from that storm’s widespread chaos. Most people forgot to send me greetings but it’s okay. I would’ve forgotten it as well had it not been my birthday. But through the bad stuff, I still got to celebrate a little.
I’m ready to sleep now. The rain has stopped and I think that is a good sign. I hope it’ll stay that way throughout the weekend. I’ve never been so eager to check on the latest position of storms than I am now with Pepeng. My main concern is the victims of last week’s big flood – they still need more dry time to recover.
Let’s all pray that the storm continues to move away from our country. Now that Piglet’s noisy tapping on his laptop is the only sound that’s bothering me, I think I can easily fall asleep now.
Oh! I’m blogging using Piglet’s mobile phone BTW. I like this a lot! Good night!
To say that I am blessed may be an understatement at this time. It’s hard to be thankful sometimes because I know not everyone survived, not everyone was spared, and not everyone can smile and laugh the way I do now. And those people face more challenges getting back up and carry with them lifelong trauma, if they’re blessed to still be alive. But I know You have reasons and I may never understand. All I know is I have faith in You and I am genuinely thankful I’m still here. Sad, but thankful.
When these things happen, many of us ask why. We point fingers. In many ways, even in the littlest ways, we contributed to causing this tragedy. I remember a commercial when I was a kid with a tagline “ang itinapon mo, babalik din sa’yo” – but the flood in that short film was less than knee-high. The makers might not have thought the flood could reach 20 feet 15 years later. Had they thought so, would it have made a difference? I can’t tell. But what I know is we must learn from this. We really must.
Desperately, I ask You to enlighten the people who lead us. Please teach them honesty and selflessness. May the victims receive properly the help and kindness that the world is giving our country. As skeptical as most people are, I still believe the government has conscience and please let that conscience prevail with the sight of the poor victims. Please help us remain hopeful and compassionate. Let hope, humility, love and optimism reign in the hearts of the victims to help them stand up again. Please make things easier for them. We’ve learned the lesson and we will recover with Your help.
Thinking outside of this room, I can say a longer prayer. My very presence here in this well-lit, comfortably cold room makes me feel overwhelming gratitude. When the typhoon struck and ruined my birthday plans, I thought it was the worst birthday I’ve had. I may never have another happy birthday knowing people will remember it as the day the city was submerged in flood. But realizing how I, together with my family, was spared from what might have been, it was the best gift I could ever receive. God, Thank You.
Very very busy guy. Very ambitious. Developing workaholic. In a committed relationship. At continuous work towards achieving goals. Firm believer of positivity and determination. That works all the time! Trying to mix it all up without losing sanity, sparkle and fun.
He celebrated his birthday last weekend with a party I’ve never seen before. Darn! We really are grown ups now.
Good night!
