BORGY.net |

After all the stops and starts…

I’ve been doing it again! I just got home from running a few errands after work this morning and I’m hungry and I’m sure to miss my minimum amount of sleep. This is bad. This lack of sleep and overly tiring situation totally contradicts my supposed healthy lifestyle. This is one of the ever-existent challenges that I have to win over. So to compensate for all the hassle, I’m indulging myself tonight on my favorite cheap combo – McDonald’s Quarter Pounder, Twister Fries (yes they’re back!!!), Large Coke, McSpaghetti, an Apple Pie and McFlurry.

Tonight is my last workday in night shift because starting next week I’ll be in the morning shift which I think works perfect with everything. I’ve been missing necessary meetings for my tasks at work and it usually takes several days for a small item to get done just because we don’t get to communicate in realtime. Anyway, I know it’s more pressure during the day but I’ll try to finish ALL my backlogs tonight so nothing will get in the way next week.

I’m waiting for good news to finish my workweek. Anyone has it?

Frustrations. Well… I have so much of them they can fill this entire room if I’ll write each one down. What’s worse is I tend to carry them almost everywhere: here at home, while in the office, on the bus, train, cab… They even haunt me while I’m sleeping. I feel like I wanna do more things but I’m restrained by issues that I can’t do anything about for now. I mean, the only way I know is to work on resolving it in the future until all is well. In the future – not now. Which sucks! Bryan and I even had a little argument about it this evening.

I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. Bad as it may sound but I feel relieved to think that others’ frustrations may be worse than mine and sometimes they don’t even have the chance or means to get what they want. Or it’ll take a lot of real hardwork. Yeah… Hardwork and focus and a lot of patience. Maybe that’s the key. Life may not appear to be the same for everybody but it all comes down to the effort that we put into getting what we want. Real effort instead of waiting for someone to pick the stars and hand them over to us.

Well… I’ve heard so much about them in songs! And I believe them. But isn’t it nice if some random fairy godmother will just pop in and give us our wishes in just a flick of her wand?! Hehe… I’m kidding. I need to sleep. But in case fairy godmothers are true and she does go online, I’ll be setting up my simple wishlist here.

This one’s on top of my wish list: Acer Ferrari 4000. I saw it in Greenhills this
afternoon and it was love at first sight! I’m making a vow to own that one day.

Would you look at that! I just got hold of this today. Two years had gone before I was finally able to really own it! I knew I was half-smiling by myself this morning when I saw it and was finally handed over to me. That was it… That was the moment!

I dropped by at school after work today to get my diploma and transcript of records. Two weeks ago I scrambled my schedule just to go there several times together with Jeyelle to finalize our feasibility study which was the only reason why our records were held. Whew! And now I finally have these shiny things with me. Too bad Mom was not able to see it – one of her greatest accomplishments. Thanks Mom!

I’ve not gone to a house party since I can no longer remember when and meeting my friends again and actually having fun with them just awakened that old feeling and image of me which had been in overdue hiatus for quite a long time now. Too bad some of us had prior commitments and had no choice but to miss it.

Saturday morning after work I decided to skip gym so I could go home for more sleep because that same afternoon I had an appointment at 5PM in the salon plus I still had to buy a gift for Kaye. It would actually not matter if only I wasn’t needed to report for work on Sunday at 10AM. Our US clients were on the process of migrating their servers so we had to be there once they were finished so we could test if everything was working properly before the report files come in today (Monday). And I knew the party wouldn’t end until around sunrise so my schedule slid down to having only a four-hour allotted-for-travel break between the two days – no time to sleep. That was a a different story…

At around 7PM I left Bryan with Jessie in Glorietta and took the long trip to Antipolo. It sucked cos the train was full and I was standing throughout the trip and I had to keep my balance while holding Kaye’s present and watching over my wallet and cellphone. Haaay… Welcome to the world of a car-less person. I reached the house at around 9PM. It was my first time there because they just moved in this year from a nearby village. And it was a big place – the house and the yard combined. I could practically do a photoshoot around it and appear to seem as if I wasn’t in the same place. Hehe… I liked it.

Kaye had other visitors. And since the place was really big, our group had set up our own table just outside the door which was a good idea so we could talk and catch up. It’s been a really long time since the last time we had a drinking bout. We don’t see each other often nowadays because of our crazy schedules and boy, we all have changed! But even if most of us looked a bit mature and packed in a few pounds (in Gilbert’s case, lost quite a lot), the essence of  who we really are as a group was still there. It’s like being back in the homebase after doing a homerun. I always say this when I speak about them: we can go on not being together for months or maybe years, but I’m sure we’ll still be and feel the same feeling towards each other as if we did not spend a long time apart. We may find other friends – lots and lots of them – but we’ll always come home to each other at the end of the day.

After hours of booze, smoke, stories and Daddy’s (Kaye’s dad) crazy hirits, we decided to join the rest of Kaye’s guests down in the garage where they’d been singing. KTV is always present in a Filipino inuman. Most of the people had gone home that time so it was easier to meet the other visitors and actually talk to them and remember their names. It took us just a few drinks and songs before we reached the comfort zone of being around each other. Gilbert and Vernie was drunk and they started to make funny antics that totally freaked me out (in a silly funny way that I like) cos I was not used to seeing them that way. Hehe… Cool. I remember an instance where they played gays and started dancing and caressing each other – it was caught on video but I’m not allowed to post it here so they better remain nice to me.

At around 3AM someone started singing an upbeat song. And being drunk and triggered by Gilbert’s non-stop sexy dancing plus Vernie’s aerobics (can you take them like that now? – hehe), everyone just stood up and started to lose it. It was how a party’s supposed to be! I was still sober – I did not drink much because I still had to work in a matter of hours – so I caught them in video. Gilbert will bribe me his millions just to stop me from posting it here or YouTube.. Haha! Aside from Liezel and Lhen, I also started queuing up more happy songs that we could dance to so we could keep the party’s momentum. Nima, the cute Iranian who’d been quiet and grumpy all along started to dance too so it was a good sign. Myles (Liezel’s girlfriend) took a video as well. We first met last year but never had the time like such to sit and talk with each other until last Saturday. We would dance and take a video of ourselves as well to make it fair for us – they can’t be the stars all the time just because we weren’t drunk. Haha!

When we got tired and finally lost nice songs to groove with, we went back to love songs and Gilbert was, is and will always be the king of love songs. He always gets away with it. Hehe… The party was in decline and we were all wiping our sweats off to look decent again. After a few minutes, we went back inside the house to cool ourselves down and prepare to leave. The house was dazzling and I love the lights so we took more pictures before leaving. Because the lights totally make anybody look like a million dollars, we took over-exposed shots to capture the natural light – only we had to keep still. And I couldn’t keep myself still – maybe because I was still in dance mode – that’s why I my face looked smudged in all these pictures.

OKAY THERE! Hehe… This post has been especially long. Hehe… There’s a lot more pictures and videos that I wish to share but *some* wanted to keep them in private eyes so I’m just gonna send it in Yahoo groups. Happy birthday Kaye! Thanks for letting us mess up your home for a night of good time. Hehe… Too bad I did not see the other parts of the house and the beautiful view of Laguna de Bay (as what Daddy said). Maybe some other time… I wish you happiness Kaye! Until next year my dear best friend!

This is one of those unusual Sundays that I like. My Dad’s here and will spend the night here and even for a short time I got to spend time with him and my brothers – all four of us. It is unusual because he works in Olongapo and this is how it has always been since a year before Mom left. Lately I’ve been feeling low about us because Dad only comes home every other week now instead of every weekend and sometimes when he’s here, he doesn’t spend the night with us. But like I said, today’s different and I’m happy with it.

When Mom died everything changed and Dad’s absence made it seem even more incomplete. Our situation has become complicated. I’m still in the process of picking broken pieces of us after what happened and getting myself used to the hurt and grief but I have to stand firm for my brothers. We’re slowly standing back up – I’m very thankful for my family for always being there. Family is important and I never realized that until I lost most of them. I’m thankful I woke up in time.

Bryan and I was in Greenbelt this afternoon having coffee when I took this pretty picture. I wanted Mom to see this and have coffee with her here when she was alive. If only I still could…

The workweek has finally ended and I couldn’t be any happier. It’s been tough because I had to go to the university after work during the week to process my clearance and request for credentials. Imagine that – I graduated two years ago and I still don’t have my diploma with me. I finished college in summer of 2005 (bad student kasi ako. hehe!) so I didn’t attend the graduation rites and I don’t have a graduation picture either. I never valued it back then but now I think it would really be nice if I had one.

Being inside the walls of CEU again was weird. A lot has changed – they’ve renovated the lanai where we used to always sit and make fun of people as well as the tambayan where we used to smoke and just chill out (in my case, sleep) while waiting for the rest of the gang before proceeding to Mickey’s. Hehe… Instances as such make me feel old and I don’t like it. But I feel proud though that I made the proper exit after all the stupid things I did at school.

I don’t have plans of going out this evening. I just wanna enjoy my time here inside the house and not think about having to prepare and get into proper clothes and shoes and all… You know… The whole whatnots of the last five days. Bryan wants to go to the mall but I declined. I don’t know if he’ll still leave later cos he fell asleep. Besides, it’s raining and we hate to walk on wet pavement. Hehe… He just can’t contain himself inside the house even for one weekend.

And this one… I saw it in Ate Tin’s blog months ago and I had one which I saved in my office computer but I forgot to post it here. Hehe… It’s cool.

I’ve been having hard feelings toward work during the past weeks and to drive my mind away from it or maybe to get myself used to it, I focused on working more everyday. I would even take some of my tasks at home and finish my backlogs due to the turnover that happened in our team. On top of that, I also allot time for studying PHP and doing chores. Anyway, it took its toll on me and I fell sick twice, lost weight and just got really tired physically and emotionally. I dindn’t feel like thinking about any of it and questioned myself if I still wanted this or is everything running fair… Issues. Fortunately this weekend I had better options than staying home.

Last Saturday Yosef treated us to a drink in Aruba Bar. Not all of us in our Support team were there so it was kind of disappointing, knowing that the party was also Cherry’s farewell. She’ll be starting to work in Trend Micro next week. Haaay… But we still had a good time. It was one of the very few moments when we did not talk about work, not worried about deadlines and we saw the other sides of us that often get overshadowed by the whole professional ordeal. It was fun.

Then after Yosef’s party, I went to Malate to meet RJ and attend the annual gay pride White Party. I never attended this event since the industrial heaven theme in 2005 and it was quite a big deal for me because back then, it was only during this party when most of us in our barkada would be able to meet up and have a fun night. My friends are mostly straight guys and girls so we did not really go inside the event in front of the stage.

Last night was quite shitty because it was raining all over. It rained in every White Party that I’ve gone to in the past but this year was the worst cos it never stopped until around 3AM. We got there late and we did not expect the program to still be ongoing – I don’t know if they stopped it when the rain poured really hard earlier. The presentations that I saw were cool. I would say funny in a very cute way. Hehe… Drag queens performed onstage donning their ultra chic and colorful outfits. I saw a couple of groups perform Dreamgirls songs but my favorite was the one who did a Celine Dion medley and they sure got singing power of a female! And a stage diva attitude too.

There was this premiere of an OPM house music written and sang by a local group (I forgot the name) and the song was really very nice! RJ liked it too. It’s called “Underground River”. You should listen to it. But the highlight of the program was a fashion show by Top and Bottom boutique. They paraded in tank tops, hot pants and shorts but the swimwear segment rated the most of course. Hehe… They even delayed it with musical performances including one by Eva Papaya and a Christina Aguilera look-alike. Too bad I forgot my camera and my glasses. Wala tuloy kaming pictures.

It was an exhausting night. I wasn’t able to get my long and precious weekend sleep. Haaay… But I had a good time that I never actually had in months so everything was worth it.

OH!!! This afternoon I watched TRANSFORMERS with Bryan in Greenbelt 3. It was AWESOME!!! I can still feel my seat trembling. There’s more about them that meets the eye.